Downpour of the crystal clear droplets banging on to every neighbor's rusty roof, the solidarity of the gray sky painted across the roaring wind. It is a great day where minds collapse and relax just by sitting beside a window pane, gazing upon the glum weather yet so satisfying for me. Satisfying enough that I could remember all the cargo that I've been weighing on my back for so many months.
I have always hoped for the rain to cancel all the expected classes by tomorrow, on the next day, on the next week. Name it, I just need the time of my own without anyone interfering with that. Is it bad thing to be tired about walking/going to school? I'm already in my 10th grade, the last year of my junior high school, though you might agree with me that these worksheets and other things connected to that are driving a fully functional mind into stress and weariness.
I felt ill and had flu for about a week and I haven't gone to school these past 2 days for my recovery. When I was a bit younger, it doesn't really matter to my sense if I left school and have low grades written on my report card. Lately, anxiousness and depression have devoured my entirety. I won't go to school and get nervous about why I haven't gone to that hellhole of a place. I won't do my works on time and won't even bother to have any progress with then, next thing is I am a total wreck of nerves.
I don't find myself relaxed even in the most relaxing time that I knew and I suppose it will never be as calming as it is. We're still in the industry of forced studying and working in order to make us feel more alive when in fact, these things are mainly the cause of breakdowns of the mind and body.
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