Everyone wants a true friend and one day they became your best friend but after all the bondings you had with her/him, you just develop something special towards your best friend. You don't even want to hurt each others' feelings but you can't even change the fact that you've already hurt her/him.
In my previous entries, I have mentioned that I don't usually speak. That's true but sometimes I speak if I just can't help myself. Although, I have been seriously quiet since Monday. Jealousy runs all over my head... Damn it. I don't know why I had a crush on a certain kind girl... Yes, it's a girl and you are thinking right now that I, Hanna Bianca is a tomboy. I have been avoiding my friends and seriously writing in My Not-So-Secret Diary. Don't take it serious, I am basically a girl not a boy!
Obviously, I became furious earlier before. I let Angelika Esporlas read my diary and I didn't expected that she would pass it to my girl crush... I really wanted to cry that time but I remembered what Ma'am Jen said to me "You have to control your feelings." That's what she said. I gritted my teeth as hard as I could and my teeth is in pain right now. It hurts me because my secrets are now unveiled.
After the Reading Program, me and my friends all went home at the same time. Angelika asked me if I could whisper into Bryle's ear about the relationship developing between the two. Basically, Julianne heard it... Oops! I revealed my girl crush's name but whatever. She became angry and as I went to my old school, I became guilty that I did what Angelika told me. I was worried about Julianne, I kept asking Genelle to say sorry to Julianne for me. I kept thinking how would she even treat me now that I've hurted her. After I got home, I logged in to Facebook and asked some of my classmates if they have her number. I keep worrying that she wouldn't even talk to me, ever again! But on the bright side, at last I got her number from Ria. After I got the number, I quickly texted her... I said sorry and things. She is not even mad at us because it's only a little thing. It's not even that big to relay all your time to it. She seriously don't know how I feel, she says that I am a girl (I am a girl, okay!) She even became my inspiration in school or even at home. Don't blame me for having a crush, this is my first time to have a crush.
In my previous entries, I have mentioned that I don't usually speak. That's true but sometimes I speak if I just can't help myself. Although, I have been seriously quiet since Monday. Jealousy runs all over my head... Damn it. I don't know why I had a crush on a certain kind girl... Yes, it's a girl and you are thinking right now that I, Hanna Bianca is a tomboy. I have been avoiding my friends and seriously writing in My Not-So-Secret Diary. Don't take it serious, I am basically a girl not a boy!
Obviously, I became furious earlier before. I let Angelika Esporlas read my diary and I didn't expected that she would pass it to my girl crush... I really wanted to cry that time but I remembered what Ma'am Jen said to me "You have to control your feelings." That's what she said. I gritted my teeth as hard as I could and my teeth is in pain right now. It hurts me because my secrets are now unveiled.
After the Reading Program, me and my friends all went home at the same time. Angelika asked me if I could whisper into Bryle's ear about the relationship developing between the two. Basically, Julianne heard it... Oops! I revealed my girl crush's name but whatever. She became angry and as I went to my old school, I became guilty that I did what Angelika told me. I was worried about Julianne, I kept asking Genelle to say sorry to Julianne for me. I kept thinking how would she even treat me now that I've hurted her. After I got home, I logged in to Facebook and asked some of my classmates if they have her number. I keep worrying that she wouldn't even talk to me, ever again! But on the bright side, at last I got her number from Ria. After I got the number, I quickly texted her... I said sorry and things. She is not even mad at us because it's only a little thing. It's not even that big to relay all your time to it. She seriously don't know how I feel, she says that I am a girl (I am a girl, okay!) She even became my inspiration in school or even at home. Don't blame me for having a crush, this is my first time to have a crush.
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